Last weekend I was reminded of how the LuckyDeeIndustries brand got started, well over a decade ago by now. My drive was to create a platform to expose the world at large to good music - or what I felt was good music anyway. Whether it was by my own creation or by that of others, I didn't really care. Of course I had plenty of plans, but as I am wont to do, too few of these plans were actually followed up on. Or, in some cases, they actually were, but the world appeared to be conspiring against me in seeing them come to fruition.

One of the songs that truly inspired me growing up was called 'Awake', by a band called Larve. Back when, some 25 years ago now, our national MTV copycat TMF would broadcast their show Wet & Wild one or two times a week, on weekdays at a time my parents expected me to be in bed. And with me being the obedient kid I was, I would tape the show on VHS and watch it the next day. I got my first taste of some incredible bands and songs thanks to that show, with special mention to Strife's 'Blistered', which we ended up playing a cover of with my previous band. Back then I never figured I'd be able to play that song, but hey, we fucking did it! God damn playing that drum fill halfway through the song...

Anyhow, for another fifteen years or so I kept on the look-out for that Larve song. It found its place into the soundtrack of my life, and I just needed to hear it again. Then, during one of my searches, I managed to find out the name of one of the band members, who went on to pursue a career in the creative arts. I got in touch with him, explained where I came from, and he was awesome enough to share the video with me, along with some other even lesser known material, and gave me his blessing to share this track with the world. And so I did:

Looking back, there's something inspirational in this, at least to myself. Putting in a decade and a half of effort and actually seeing it come to fruition. And still it seems I haven't learned my lesson yet. It's so easy to forget how gratifying it is to hang in there and carry your ideas on through the end. To set your goals and take concerted action to achieving them. I am now pushing 42, the Answer to Life, the Universe and Everything, and even though the answer's right there the question seems to efface itself time and time again.

So here I am, trying to remember the question. Trying not to fall asleep again while the answers are all swarming right within my grasp, if only I would have the wherewithal to wrap my fingers around them. A decade has already ceased to sound imposing, yet still I feel defeated having to wait a couple of months, weeks, days or even hours for gratification.

This makes me human, I guess, especially in today's instant world, but still... I want to stay awake. I want to remember what it is that keeps me going, whether it takes me five minutes or the rest of my life to get there. I want to make that song. I want to breathe life to that character. I want to see and feel it all. I can do this.

How about you?